I know we are not to despise humble or small beginnings, perhaps, I did as a young girl teaching Sunday School to a group of elderly ladies, there were not many people my age. I felt an inadequate teacher, but I told them about Jesus. That was enough.
I have since learned to let those awful lies of the enemy go, they are not true. God was pleased with me doing my best, even if I was being oppressed and overwhelmed at times, even persecuted. And then, Nannie gave me the book on angels. I read it, didn’t think much more about it. But His angels were working in me and the Holy Spirit, I was saved at eleven.
I drifted between Baptist and Pentecostal churches, and later heard more and was interested in charismatic teaching, because I needed healing. But I found that too be hard, I did watch what I said and still do and the enemy gets in that way and others, it was just so difficult for me, sometimes, it was hard to love but it has never been hard for Him to love me. I found out that the Lord speaks to us, even in the darkness we are in as believers, it comes against us in many ways and often through the careless speech of other, mockers and even cruelty, people don’t want to hear how good that Jesus is or that something they are doing is wrong, which is why intercession became my way to pray.
I read more about angels, got a lot of ridicule, was accused of a lot of things that were not true. The truth is God was working all the time and I’m sure He is for you. I had to put down my heavy cross of shame heaped on my by others, and the enemy. And pick up the grace of a risen Lord and realize He answers prayer, He does heal, He does send angels.
In truth, I would never have thought of being in the ministry, but in a way I was, and I know now, it was a ministry of angels. He charges them because of prayers, do people receive? It is up to them. God never forces His love on you, it is much more than mere mortal love.
His love saves, heals, delivers, sets you free, and even destroys, Yes, destroys, All the mental arguments that are against Him, all the yoke of sin and slavery, the heaviness of burdens, He is the lifter of our heads and hearts, the beloved Prince of Peace who left His own peace as a gift, John 14:27.
We are to be confident in Him, that He can complete us and finish the good work. I was never able to do anything without Him and even with Him, I found myself having to leave a lot of decisions up to Him. Though I followed Him and sang that I wanted to be more like Him, I could never fill His shoes, and you know what, He knew that already, so why was I struggling with trying to do better and be better, I was losing the battle and His gift of peace, so I stopped to let Him fight before me, to send His angels before me. Heaven is looking better all the time and His coming is sooner than we think, He will come with angels beside Him and all around.
And I am very blessed to have been a part of that, because He gave me a taste of heaven, and a ministry of angels.
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