Why I Love My Father


He’s always looking out for me. He planned so many good things in advance. Even before He created the world, I was a twinkle in His eye. Even before Jesus died. And knew all about me too. He danced the day I was born because I almost was not, my mother and I were in a bad way when His hand covered us. And we’ve been covered ever since.

There were things I knew I wanted but could not afford but He was taking that into consideration and making better plans than I already had. So I didn’t get to do a lot of things. And I sought Him about health. I was trying to hard to be good and fit in. But God wants you to shine and stand out, I think that bothered some adults, especially, what I knew about the Bible.

I was avoiding controversy if I could, but I had to stand up for Jesus and that made Him proud, in a good way. He had the right time for plans and I was following them to the letter. Or so I thought, I knew He had answered prayers, I just had not seen all the results. I never really doubted my Father’s Word. He’ll bring in the harvest at the right time. There will be beauty in the fruition of His time. Also I never really knew how much He did love me. I don’t think we really do, we know it but yet, we don’t. Somehow it has to get through to both head and heart, we have to get emotions and mentalities or mindsets out of the way.

He was always patient with me, He was always there for me. He knew when I worked too hard and got me back on track, time and again I was healed of things that should have devastated me, and a lot of those things were caused from trying too hard to be healed of the one or two healings I needed most, and just wearing myself out, I was helping the enemy, who does try to wear out the saints. I didn’t always recognize that but now I do. I was worn out, truthfully, I wore myself out, but I know now that I always  had His rest, I didn’t always enter it.

I can listen to my heart, and be anxious for nothing and feel His peace, I can rest in Him as He takes care of it for me. He has been firm with me, yet, the only time I was ever really admonished was about fear. Why fear, when I have His love? And His love is perfect. Mine may get tired, His will not. And a heart filled with the Father’s love can be trusted and is no longer deceitful like the proverb says. God will not lie, He keeps every promise. If we don’t receive something there is a reason, and most of them are in us.

And that is not a negative comment but more of a note to self, don’t count yourself out, never fold, don’t disqualify yourself. He doesn’t. My Father is peaceful and patient. He make things beautiful in His time. He is love eternal, reach out to love His children. All of us.

I love my Father because of His love and patience, He even held onto to promises I thought were lost. I may have been broken, but His promises were. true. I listened to some who said wait. I waited, and waited. But my Father holds eternity in His hand and my promises, I have prayed so many prayers for myself and others. So if my Father is yours, because you know Jesus, He has your promises too.

He never gave up on me, stopped loving me or welcoming to open arms of love and compassion when people would show very little. Most people just don’t understand, when I didn’t have money, I would laugh about having a trust fund. I had to trust my Father, that was actually very true.

I love Him for His gifts, real and spiritual, for His peace more than anything, for His Spirit to teach me and never leave or forsake me. He’s never too busy for me, He always listens, He’s never tired of my stories or ideas. I neither bore or annoy Him. He cares about details, He is in them.

He treats me as an only child, I am spoiled in a good way, and lavished in love and grace. I am His girl, His pearl, and He is my world. I have and endless list of reasons to love my Father. But I need only one, I love Him because He loved me first. And with this post I close the month of spending time with my Father, but He will still there as we enjoy a summer of angels.

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His Grace Abounds To Me

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Oh Lord, you’re beautiful, Your face is all I seek, For when your eyes are on this child, Your grace abounds to me….. Oh Lord, thank you that your grace abounds to me. I really feel a lot going on in my soul.

It is if I am being torn in two or more directions. I don’t want to be unkind but I get tired of the same trials popping up and I know where they come from. The same old enemy, the same old lies, the same old what if’s or should haves.

Some days are like fighting a never ending battle and some days are long. That is why I had to quit fighting and struggling and rest in His love. I was exhausted, and it didn’t matter if the dishes weren’t done or the laundry piled up.

I can nap, be quiet and be still. Let His waves of grace wash over me as I worship or pray, I can feel His love warm me like a soft blanket and His peace.is powerful, like standing by the sea or in a mist of rain, the waves of grace pour over me and they will you too.

Because He is beautiful, I have sought His face and I know like a sparrow, His eyes are on me, and  grace abounds to me.  So what is your struggle today? Stop struggling and release that burden to HIm and He will let you abound in grace everyday.

Don’t think you can’t slow down, you’re too busy or still young. It catches up to you no matter your age, the enemy steals youth and strength but the Lord restores it. Take time to meditate on the beauty of the Lord, it is all around us.

Won’t you take a moment today to pray with me, Father, I repent of not taking care of myself, and I release my burdens to you and will not pick them again, when I start to worry of feel torn between emotions and faith, I let you wash over me with your Spirit and waves of grace abound to me. In Jesus name, amen. public domain, please enjoy Keith Green.


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Making It Up To God

Have you ever felt like you had to make up something in your life to God. I realized that I had been trying to do just that, and working myself feverishly and running myself both down and ragged. God isn’t like that. If anything, He want’s to make it up to you.

I thought many times that I wasn’t a good enough example, wasn’t successful enough, that I should have visited more or went to a better church. I thought I had failed as a writer, far from it. God exceeded everything, whether it has come to fruition or not. I thought I had gotten angry, even angered my angels. It is in the Bible, another post.

I thought I had not been a good enough witness, that I had even complained about Bible thumpers, yep, that was me. Though  I loved Jesus, I hated that things did not appear to change. Then I realized He never does, and if people don’t it is their choice. If they choose not to receive what He has to say or what we speak that is His heart, it is their loss. I was taking it to heart. I grieved things, took them too personally, and to heart. All things that were not my choosing or my fault, I was following love by following Jesus.

And I quote a lot of Bible but I am not thumping it. I am telling you how much He loves you, how tremendously loved by a Father who could send His spotless, sinless Son to take our blame and punishment. If His love does not have an effect on your heart nothing will. Being afraid of hell is not the reason to get saved, you have to be in love with Jesus or you will walk right back into sin, and maybe wind up worse than before, saved only by grace and the proverbial skin of your teeth.

So what I’m telling you today is the truth, you can never make up for your past or missed opportunities or anything really, to God, and the good news is He never expected you to. Salvation is a gift, and it keeps on giving. You cannot earn it by works or repay God, though He has plans for your life.

So don’t burn the candle of your spirit at both ends. You don’t have to do everything or be a part of everything or minister to everyone, and be everything to everyone all the time. You are human, He is God. And He will make it up to you, if anything, He caused Joseph to forget after his ordeals.

He can cause us to forget as well, and we also must forgive ourselves and rest in His love. The Prince of Peace wants to give us His peace as a gift, wrapped up in ribbons, a priceless and valuable gift to the heart that give the body rest. He has already left it so just receive.

Don’t make up to God let Him restore and refresh your soul.

The LORD’s light penetrates the human spirit, exposing every hidden motive. Proverbs 20:27

A peaceful heart leads to a healthy body; jealousy is like cancer in the bones. Proverbs 14:30

I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. John 14:27 New Living

He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. Psalm 23:3 ESV

For I will restore health to you, and your wounds I will heal, declares the LORD, because they have called you an outcast: ‘It is Zion, for whom no one cares!’ Jeremiah 30:17 ESV

I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the hopper, the destroyer, and the cutter, my great army, which I sent among you. Joel 2:25 ESV, He has allowed some things to make us stronger, or we didn’t know Him then, He never uses the enemy to teach us lessons, the Holy Spirit is our teacher.



How Do You See Jesus?

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Well, how do you? Ask a dozen people you may get a dozen answers.  Many people only think of Him as a baby in a manger or on the cross. Some people will just call on Him if they need Him. Some would say rabbi or prophet, even teacher or a good man, someone from history. And a lot of people would not believe in Him at all or that He was wrong somehow.

Many people identify themselves as Christians simply because they are not Jews or Muslims, or some other religion. That doesn’t necessarily mean that they have accepted Him as Lord or have personal knowledge and relationship with Him, but wise men sought Him and a king feared Him, enough to have infants killed.

He came as a baby, He had to experience what we would only He never sinned and took our place, giving us  redemption or salvation, if we believed. He was crucified and raised from the dead. He is called the second Adam, the first of many brothers and sisters, He is the Messiah, Yeshua. He is the name above all names, the Sar Shalom, the Prince of Peace, He is referred to again as Shiloh, meaning peace.

The Rose of Sharon, Lily of the Valley, the Daystar. He is the beloved Son of God. He was and is echad, Hebrew for one, pronounced e-hod, meaning one, He and the Father were and are one. He is the second person of the Holy Trinity,  His is desire is for us to be one with the Spirit.

He was a storyteller of parables, He was / is, Jehovah Rapha, the healer, the Word made flesh who dwelt among them and is with us now by His Spirit. He is the one who loves souls. The mender of broken bodies, hearts and lives. He is salvation itself, He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and end.

He is the Lamb of God slain from the foundation of the world. He is the great I AM. He is everlasting love. He is the same, yesterday, today and forever. He is the only one worthy to open the Book of Life. He is the High Priest of our profession. He is the way, the truth and the life.

Jesus was and always has been the light of the world. He is the door, and He knocks at the door of hearts. He is the Christ, the anointed one, that is what Christ means, it means God poured His Spirit in and on Him, that is the same Spirit that saves us, baptizes us  and gives gifts, the same Spirit that raised Him from the dead.

I could give you more names, and God’s names, He embodies them all. But this is just a study to make you think about who Jesus is to you. Is He Lord of your life? Friend closer than a brother? Did He just save a poor old sinner or is He the savior who made someone unworthy, worthy? Who was unrighteous, righteous? Did He save you by grace and give you grace upon grace? Or are you hoping works will count? Hoping to earn your way to heaven, it doesn’t work that way?

He is life and life more abundantly. He will never leave or forsake us, never leave us orphans, He will come to us. He will answer when you call. He is the bread of life, of heaven our manna. Is He your go to person or the last one you call? Is He the first one you think about in the morning and last one at night.

Is your relationship with the Lord an acquaintance, only enough to say hello to or speak to on occasions, casual, like meeting for lunch, once in a while, is it on again off again. Is it familial? What would do if He came to your house? You know His home is your heart, He really should already live there. Is it intimate, spiritual, like a marriage, only deep in spirit? Could you know what He is thinking, finish His sentences, know what He wants and needs you to do and what to avoid. Do you say the right things, do you argue with Him?

Can you feel His presence? He calls you by name and your are His, you are accepted by the Father, into the beloved, Jesus. Is He your joy and  your delight? He has left you His peace as a gift one many? Is He your treasure. where your heart is? How you see Jesus says a lot about you, He wants to be a part of your life, it should revolve around Him as He hovers over you.

If you see Him on a cross, He is wounded to you. If you see Him risen He is alive to you. You must see Him as grace and truth, or you will accept condemnation. You must look into the eyes of love and be transfixed by His beauty, if you value money or material things or even your own life more, you could turn away like the rich, young ruler.

I used to sing a song to children, and it is one of His names, actually, I still sing it sometimes. Isn’t He wonderful, wonderful wonderful, Isn’t Jesus my Lord wonderful? Yes, He is wonderful and peaceful power. Now, once again, how do see you Him? Jesus my Lord, is wonderful. And He is His Father’s Son.

Though many religions may teach some of His messages and about peace, He remains the beloved Son of God. No other god died for anyone.  He is the Alpha and Omega was there in the beginning, and He will be there at the end, and His love is everlasting.

I wrote this for myself because I identified with His suffering so much, I had to see Him alive and as my intercessor, someone on the throne of heaven and the mercy seat of my heart. Someone who loved me, and was not condemning me as I often had myself. I had to simply delve into His beauty and love, and there is grace and peace.

I am not here to judge, but I do believe He is the only way, and I only ask people to consider that eternal decision.

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Throw Down That Rod!


I read and study the Bible a lot. I have been going over many verses about angels, one I found in Exodus brought me to the story of Moses. Up against the Red Sea, the angel gets between them, and the army. God’s angels or even the Angel of the Lord, Himself, has us when we are between the proverbial rock and hard place but that’s not the topic of my post.

That just made me think of what I had heard about Moses and the magicians of Pharaoh’s court, you might remember the scene from the Ten Commandments, they toss down rods that become cobras, Moses does the same but His staff devours theirs and he reaches to pick up the tail, leaving the head to God, and once again it is a staff.

Now, I know we are not used to seeing Jesus as a serpent, but hear me out because it is important and Biblical. When the Israelites were bitten by deadly serpents, Moses was instructed to fashion a brass serpent and put it on a pole. All who looked at it were healed. They carried it until the time of Hezekiah, but instead of seeing it as God’s healing they began to invent superstitions.

Now, this is a type of Christ, you see how He took our afflictions and punishment, Jesus alludes to it Himself, in John 3:14, 15. Bronze in the Bible is representative of sin, rebellion, and also of  suffering. I am always amazed at what He took for me. Jesus, blamess, spotless, without sin, became sin to free us from it, so why still do it? Your spirit with His Spirit is stronger.

Because Jesus took the suffering and punishment we are free, righteous, blessed and beloved. And even healed. If we can look at Him, and see what He took in our place, it is gruesome, ugly and vile, but the sacrifice was beautiful and brought us eternal  life, grace and peace.

Jesus took the curses, He broke them, there is always a little of it remaining in our lives even after being saved because of the flesh, and the ignorance of not knowing the spiritual aspects of it.

We can throw down that rod, the cross in a sense, and let Jesus devour the devourer, whether the remnants of the curse is in our bodies or our work or ministry. We can throw it down and leave head of the serpent to God. And pick it up again, and our rod and staff will comfort us.

The stick thrown into the bitter waters of Mara is also and example but remember Moses disobeyed and missed the Promised Land, would he have went to heaven, yes, but he missed blessings. When God told him to strike the rock, he did , but when he was told to speak to it, he hit it not once but twice, that staff was the same one that devoured the magicians cobras, it represented Christ.

Now, even before he was to make the brass serpent, God had His plan, and did not want Jesus stricken more than once. He was crucified once and for all and never will be again, so we are to speak to Him. The children of Israel murmured and complained and were bitten, they weren’t even happy with their manna. We want to be satisfied with our manna from heaven, Jesus, even if we are waiting for answers.

We all have tried to struggle and carry a cross and follow Him but He carried it for us, and we can just talk to Him. So let’s pray that He break the curses off any of our efforts, and bring us what we need, in Jesus name, we throw down that rod, and let Him crush that enemy. And we look to Him, and speak to Him and magnify His holy name. The Lamb slain from before the foundation our blessed Jesus.


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Why I Stopped Fighting


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Why I stopped fighting, I had to. Oh, I stand in faith, have the armor of God, sometimes we think we have chinks in it but if it His armor, how could that be? I just had to stop fighting and be still, why? Here’s the answer.

The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent. Exodus 14:14, some translations, or most say be still, bringing us back to Psalm 46:10, and we have already talked about the Hebrew roots of that being to let go, and in the context of rapha, or healing, so letting things go, brings healing.

Not only that, you won’t be so tired of fighting. Let the Lord handle what you can’t anyway. You may be unaware of the root of the problem or spiritual warfare. The Hebrew also uses a phrase meaning to hold your peace. Now, we know God a God of peace, He sent Jesus the Prince of Peace to take our place and Jesus left us His peace. John 14:27

As a believer, we depend on God, and look at this verse we have to be still but God in Psalm 83:1 Keep not your silence, O God: hold not your peace, and be not still, O God. Look who’s doing battle for you. And there’s more.

The LORD your God who goes before you will himself fight for you.

Do not be afraid of them, for the LORD your God,Himself will fight for you.

,,,,,for the LORD your God is He who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies, to give you the victory.

Deuteronomy 1:30, 3:22. 20:4

Wherever you hear the sound of the trumpet, rally to us there. Our God will fight for us! Nehemiah 4:20

You will not need to fight in this battle. Stand firm, hold your position, and see the salvation of the LORD on your behalf, O Judah and Jerusalem.’ Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed. Tomorrow go out against them, and the LORD will be with you. 1 Chronicles 20:7,8

And in Ephesians 1:8, He has showered His kindness on us, along with all wisdom and understanding. So let’s not wear out ourselves out in battle but use the weapons of our warfare, His name and blood, casting down imaginations. 2 Corinthians 10:5.

And let’s remember, What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31 I like peace, and I want to have it my life, so I had to stop fighting, even defending myself, I don’t have to argue. God says not guilty, the enemy is a thief and liar, and even the false accusations won’t stand up. I would much rather have the Holy Spirit be my attorney, I don’t need a fool for a client. And I don’t like fighting, so I stopped and let God take over, I had to.


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Because God Looks At Hearts


What does God see when He looks at your heart? When Samuel the prophet went to the home of Jesse to look at his seven sons, he was sure Eliab fit the bill and looked like a king but God rejected him, and told Samuel that men look at the outward appearance. Samuel eventually, had to send for David in the fields, and we know what happened. Though David sinned quite a lot, he was forgiven, and his words and psalms made him a man after God’s own heart.

But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the LORD sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7

The LORD is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18

Delight yourself in the LORD, and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3

Anxiety weighs down the heart of a man, but a good word cheers it up. Proverbs 12:25

A heart at peace gives life to the body. Proverbs 14:30

A glad heart makes a cheerful face, but by sorrow of heart the spirit is crushed. Proverbs 15:13

The plans of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the LORD. Proverbs 16:1

A man’s heart plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9

Many plans are in a man’s heart, but the purpose of the LORD will prevail. Proverbs 19:21 ( or woman’s )

Oil and perfume make the heart glad, and the sweetness of a friend comes from his earnest counsel. Proverbs 27:9

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:26

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. Matthew 6:21

He has blinded their eyes and hardened their heart, lest they see with their eyes, and understand with their heart, and turn, and I would heal them. John 12:40  God allows unbelief to harden hearts that won’t hear.

Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. John 14:1

Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled; do not be afraid. John 14:27

My prayer is that light will flood your hearts and you will understand the hope given to you when God chose you. Then you will discover the glorious blessings that will be yours together with all God’s people. Ephesians 1:18 Contemporary

And He who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. Romans 8:27

….. He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and grounded in love…. Ephesians 3:16,17

Take heed, brethren, lest there be in any of you have an evil heart of unbelief, in departing from the living God. Hebrews 3:12,13

Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion. Hebrews 3:15, in the wilderness.

And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4:7, the new covenant of Christ, even though we should guard it, Proverbs 4:23 He does it better.

And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Colossians 3:15

…..Comfort your hearts and establish them in every good work and word. 2 Thessalonians 2:17

You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. James 5:8

And there are so many more, we start out broken hearted, and over the crucifixion, we are to have a contrite  or repentant heart, it can get hardened or calloused as some translations say, you may have to let go of people like that to keep peace that He wants in there. It should be established in love and peace, and we have to guard it and let Him as well. He has given us a new heart, a new spirit in His love.

We should delight in Him and He will us, and He never wants our hearts troubled. If a sweet friendship is good for our hearts  then Jesus really is! What is He looking at, when He looks at our hearts?

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A Gift From God

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Did you ever get a gift that was so good, something as child that you still have from your father? I think we all have some little treasure from someone we love, whether it is a trinket or piece of heirloom jewelry.

Many of you who read my blog may know my father left when I was two, I even have a bracelet of his, a wallet, pictures. The most treasured are a picture of he and my mother, when they looked happy. And he was an amateur artist, among other things, I have a sketch he did of my mother and I as a baby. I also have a huge photograph of my mother when she was sixteen.

I used to think I got my creativity from him, and that there was some resentment in my family. It was never a topic  of discussion really, big mistake. And and even bigger one if it consumes you and you rehash everything. What I believed all those years was wrong. I didn’t want to hurt her anymore but she said she had forgiven him, even that doesn’t erase all the memories, time doesn’t heal, only God can heal not time.

I believed the lies that it didn’t matter, I told myself that a lot in my thirties. If boys miss out on having a father and they do girls miss the kind of love that teaches them the kind of man they want to marry. That is how so many girls and women get in to abusive relationships. All women long for the love of a father, and when you don’t have one in your life, you grieve or mourn him, even if you have another man filling his role. And doing his best. God has to heal that father wound and even mother wound.

It doesn’t help you to lie about the feelings, to push them down, dwell on the negative or explore the what ifs? The good and perfect gift is that you do have a father. A Heavenly Father who loves you and never leaves, always understands, listens and comforts. And He is pleased with you as a believer, if you have a heart for Him. He can walk you through heartache and disappointments.

God is a tough act to follow in some ways, earthly parents are just not like Him, though capable of His love, they may not have known it either. I try not to be too hard on them, nor should you. We are all in the same boat and even if it is His, sometimes, we step out and sink.

The good and perfect gift is His love. I have always had His approval, as I matured in grace, I can sense the disapproval and avoid situations. I wanted faith to please Him,  but I went overboard when I didn’t have to fight that battle. Because I was disappointed by my earthly father, I should not have taken it out my heavenly one, I should have seen beyond  the flesh and into the Spirit of love that God is. His love never fails. That is a good and perfect gift and that is what He gave me, along with my creative soul.



God Pleasers


A few years ago there was popular book about being a God Chaser by Tommy Tenney. I chased Him alright but He already had me from the start.  I did enjoy the teaching. But a lot of people don’t realize that many people are called, to salvation, ministry, to God and just don’t accept, misunderstand and have the Word taken away, or are just waiting on His timing or His best But there are some who are just chosen. I think I fell into that category and didn’t realize it.

I recently heard someone’s statement about church and shame, and that some were predestined and why bother if you won’t make it anyway. Well, Jesus came to seek and save the lost, anyone who will believe on His name, that He died and rose again, Romans 10:9, 10. Should you be one of those people who believe you can’t be saved, I’m telling you the truth, you can.

But God knew many would not accept the call to salvation and still others would be predestined for certain things in life, and they may not even realize that.  We spend too much time and even waste it, though God wastes nothing but is the redeemer instead. Too much time on chasing God, while He is right there.

We spend way too much time as people pleasers afraid to say no, or not fit in. Afraid of being ridiculed or humiliated, that’s not Jesus anyway, and yes, you can get it from believers, who don’t know better, are spiritually immature or even jealous, who have been taught wrong or who are not listening to the Holy Spirit as the teacher, and speaking from the flesh.

For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ. Ephesians 1:10

Don’t work only while being watched, as people-pleasers, but as slaves of Christ, do God’s will from your heart. Ephesians 6:6

While Paul is talking to people who are slaves or bondservants, it is applicable to us. Lots of people work while they are watched and slack off later, we are probably all guilty of that at one time or another but some people are like that all the time. But God wants us to be diligent as if our work is for Him because it is. You are a more effective witness as a full time Christian, and the devil even defeats the part timers with his lies.

Paul also calls himself the slave of Christ even going so far as to say that he bears the marks, slaves were branded in many places, or tattooed, something to identify them as a slave. In Romans 1:1, he mentions it, and it is a big turnaround from a man who used to hunt down and kill Christians. Jesus literally knocked him off his high horse.

And He will judge and take down everyone eventually, whether a little or a lot, a notch or several, the unbelievers will be turned into hell but He gives them every chance. I learned early as a child how to be good, I was people pleasing, the same went for church and adults whom I thought knew more than me but didn’t.

Sure, I could put together a yard sale for the church, do a lot of the work. Or watch a class or children, not that I minded but I realized later I was given in as a people pleaser, when I was a God pleaser. I was right to volunteer, be respectful obedient, go the extra mile and even more so, but I missed some things myself as a people pleaser.

Falling into the ” Why me or what about me? attitude, I wondered if my turn would ever come? I knew there was more and better, and while I couldn’t walk over people to get it, I felt very much like a doormat. When I stood up for myself, well, that didn’t work either, perhaps I grew up but wound up still swatting the demons coming against my soul, the could haves and should have, would have and what ifs,

If someone says to me that God is proud of me, or even if I was asked I would have to say yes, not because of me but Jesus, I was a people pleaser in the past, I chased God who already had me and though I sought approval from others or by the world’s standards, I had His already and still do. He’s a good God and He knows what He is doing even if I don’t.

I went to extremes to try and have great faith, that was stupid. He knew I loved Him and believed, that is enough. I prayed and spoke His word, I hid a little, I wasn’t ashamed of Him but me, back to the old people pleaser. But I measured up by His standards. God pleaser. And you know what maybe you do too.

Stop striving and be still Psalm 46:10, if you seek God He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:6, I told you He is a good God, so sure, I want to be a God pleaser, not for rewards, just for Him.

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To Be Like My Father


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I can awake in the warm glow of the morning sun, not tired at all, with a full night of peaceful rest. I would hear the birds sing, the morning mist would sprinkle over the flowers of the garden and I am intoxicated with the aroma of spring washing over me and every day, I  turn to find a loving husband, God made me just for him. My name is Eve. Can you even imagine their perfect lives?

I can take this a little farther, just like you could or any of us. Such as, I am young and beautiful in my Father’s image, illness is not a word I know, I am the picture of health, vibrant, alive in the love I was created for, to give and receive. His words are fresh in my mind and heart and I speak them and praise Him continually.

My hair sweeps over my shoulders, my skin is smooth and soft. My legs are strong and straight, I can walk and run, I dance through fields of flowers and sing His praise. I know no pain. My back lets me carry baskets of fruit, I can pick vegetables all afternoon.

I fill my home with the feast of His goodness, and honey is on my table, flowers too, my husband and I are at peace, and we eat the fresh bread of God’s goodness and grace. I hear Jesus coming, His knock is at the door and the door of my heart, the words roll with  joy from my mouth, ” Adam, let Him in. ”

I break bread everyday with the beloved. He is God in the flesh. We talk about many things, how the heavens came together, how the earth was formed. I see a parade of angels and animals from the window.

There is never a day when there is not something that needs tending but it still never a chore, my life is growing by leaps and bounds, it is full and abundant and I should need a little rest in the afternoon, I lay my head on a pillow of green pasture and the stream trickling past lulls me to sleep. As I drift off, I hear Jesus tell Adam to  let the beloved sleep.

I wake refreshed as if had been swimming in the cool waters or standing under one of the many waterfalls where the rich, fragrant and tropical flowers grow. Where the toucans and cockatoos are, I feed them nuts and figs.

I take Adam’s hand and watch Jesus walk away into the moonlight, we like back try to count the stars, unsuccessfully. The night air cools a little, and the sunset was spectacular, so he said, he describes the colors, as he brushes his hand over my cheek. I was still resting, and now I can walk home with my beloved and drink the fruit juices we made today, and the table is loaded with grapes and cheese and crackers I have learned to bake. We will enjoy an evening snack and fall asleep, in love and hand in hand. Just like my Father planned it, so my life is, joy and peace. Pleasant, precious, perfect.

I have heard that Adam and Eve could have had children before the fall, that is possible. And the was no curse with childbirth and none with work, that came later. So a happy and large family would have kept them busy, still it is hard to imagine life in the garden, we have known only the latter, and with the latter rain coming, the Spirit will return us to His glory and we will know what it is to be like the Father. In His image. Jesus was. Is.

He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son. Colossians 1:13, in these last days…..He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high. Hebrews 1:3. For those whom He foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, in order that He might be the firstborn among many brothers. Romans 8:29

Some people I know have had a hard time with understanding the Bible, He wanted everyone to be saved, He knew everyone ever born, some people choose Him and some refuse His call. If you have believed He wants you to be like Jesus and one day that will happen, let’s let Him love and restore us.

And by His sacrifice the curses were off, if we could only accept and receive that. He had to come to redeem what Adam and Eve lost. She surely was deceived, she never needed her eyes opened, or to be like God, she already was in a sense, she had freedom,  His joy and peace. She had the rest of faith that God wants us to know, that He is the provider, the all sufficient one, there is nothing He can’t do or will withhold, no blessing or favor.

Her life was never dull or boring, there were many things to enjoy and she was learning everyday. Her children would have taught of the Lord, she would have been forever young, they had eternal life and lost it. We have it and we will not because Jesus reigns in us. We could be alive when He comes. He was one with the Father, intimate and close, sharing the Spirit, as we should be. he only drove them out so they would not live forever in a fallen state.

There has been far too much discord sown and too much dissention, He is pouring out His Spirit, wanting to restore us to health and joy, the garden of Eden was a copy of the garden of God in heaven, what a wonderful place to be, forever, and like my Father.

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